Having Fun

Ugh, well, if I have to write a blog about having fun... then that really says a lot about what's going on with me and my world around me... Life really hasn't been too too much fun, although, I still think that that I have a ton of fun with the friends that are in my life, whenever I get to hang out with them.

but here's a clip from another blogger..
Tips on having fun.

1. Stop hiding who you really are.
2. Start being intensely selfish.
3. Stop following the rules.
4. Start scaring yourself.
5. Stop taking it all so damn seriously.
6. Start getting rid of the crap.
7. Stop being busy.
8. Start something.
9. Don’t worry what others will think about you.

I think I pretty much need to do all of this. but with moderation.

So I got a studio space!!!
I'm excited and also.... a bit doubtful of having gotten a studio space at art explosion... I guess it's a good thing. I'll let you know how it goes next week. I'm moving in this weekend, and I'm excited about the potential. I'm going to meet a bunch of people who are maybe just like me... or just really crazy. :D

I think I'd like to set up a challenge for myself in terms of what I want to do with the new found space... and maybe I can base the challenge on the 8 principle that this random person came up with above.

Also, since Amy always raves about Martha Stewart, I got MS's book on starting up a business. It's sort of like her biography. She's not a bad writer. Her personality really comes out... She wrote that she would approach any business venture like a good cooking extravaganza. Get all of the ingredients first! So she means that you should do all of the research before venturing onto a new business. I think this is a way to set up control, that way you can play and be creative with the rules that are already set up. I could see how that could be a key to success; a good balance of control and exploration. Martha Stewart seems a bit anal and controling. I think the way I approach cooking is always to find what I can do with what's in the cupboard or pantry.

The next book that I want to read is... Elanor Rosevelt... Who's definately one of my heros. I really don't like interacting with women who are serious and dry, but I love getting to know abut what they do, how they do it, and pretty much how kick ass they are.

Meistakes...

Are kind of personal, but I guess I'm not very private so I'm going to share it here.

It's a bit embarassing how much trouble I'm having with everything. But there's really no shame in things that are beyond my control, and especially if I try my best. As long as I find out what the miestakes are, then I just have to work towards changing it, and that's just so fucking annoying. I really couldn't say that I was a good employee before...

Worker

As I work more, and it's been about a year since I've graduated, and been in the 'worker' world... I'm starting to gain more control over the whole thing.

What do I mean by 'control'?

It means having a certain goal, of something that you want to get... and sometimes making different moves, to refrain, to let it be, to let it out, to be, and most of the times to act in order to get that goal. There's a certain kind of conscious decision making... or deciding against pressure and habit insstead of running around like a chicken with its head cut off.

This is completely addictive behavior... and sometimes, I have to admit, must be pathetic in the eyes of other people. I use to watch people like me, and feel like they are crazy or just plain pathetic... I like it now. It's not that pathetic yet.

My right eye is twitching. What is it from? Is it from the two cups of coffee I had today? Or is it from the three beers and the margarita that I'm working on right now?

Sometimes I feel like I am running a marathon. Sometimes, it gets boring.

Sometimes I forget to pee when I'm working.

Sometimes I just want to forget my body. I want to run, I want to work, I want to GO and forget the carnal world.

I told Hin that my boss doesn't think that I'm going to be an architect.. and he said that 'no body knows your potential. Even you don't.' What a wonderfully poetic reply.

I think this is why my mother biked 100 miles on a mountain bike. I think this is why people climb mountains, climb sky scrapers, or become alchies. Do things that's potential bad for themselvees. Just so that they could find their limit.

I wonder how I'm going to find my limit.

Architecture Jerk

I get so heated sometimes, I lose sight of things around me...