A Great Conversation with an Architect

I had a great conversation with an architect today.

I really like talking to all architects... They are always so informative... Our profession is regarded as a sort of long journey. There's this kind of mentorship that happens, and I'm really appreciative of that.

I feel bad, I feel like I need to be more appreciative of the efforts that my boss would give me.

Everyday I looked forward to going to work. I get burnt out quickly, things are sort of overwhelming, and I don't really understand what my boss wants a lot of time, but generally, everyday, I feel like I learned something new.

I've stopped trying to merge architecture and art. It's a lot easier when I think of them separately. I just wish in a lot of ways that I was younger, 10 years younger. Not that I regret my twenties at all, but I do wish I had found a more focused venue for my passion.

I feel like my life is so chaotic right now... I don't know where to go, who to see how to stand on my feet. This guy that I talked to today, the architect, knew exactly where I was in my life without me having to say anything.

I'm done feeling bad... at least for now

I don't know what happened, but today I feel good.

Ruchama was talking about how she had felt sooo bad all throughout Highschool for who she was... Sorry for not having big boobs, sorry for being too tall, sorry for being a nerd... sorry for all of that..

It's so silly. I don't know why she should feel so bad about herself. Especially because they are things that can't really change.

I feel like I'm still going through the same thing... feeling sorry for who I am. I'm sorry I'm not even tempered... I'm sorry I'm not quicker, I'm sorry I don't understand you, I'm sorry I'm not chipper, I'm sorry I'm not rich, I'm sorry I'm not relaxed, I'm sorry I'm slow, I'm sorry I make mistakes, blah blah blah.