That's what I want.
Same thing that every body wants... I want to be loved, and at the same time have fun and be free. I insist on freedom. Love on the other hand, seems kind of painful. Not sure if I'm ready for that yet.
Kelley said that I need to work on humility. I think that means being more respectful of other people.
What am I scared of? I'm scared of being disapointed again. I'm scared that people are going to leave me again.
Why is respect such a challenge?
Because it seemed like, no matter how much I respected people, other people just didn't care. Because I was scared. Because he was supposed to protect me, and I'm all alone and poor, and miserable, and not special at all. And I feel like a little pebble that is so meaningless sometimes... And I guess it feels good to be meaningless sometimes. Less burden.
But what I have to do is... let other people know that they are special too.
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