Rambles

The creepy guy from my apartment yesterday saw me at the BBQ, and asked me if I ever goto Yoshi's. 'Ummm, yeeennooo... No, I, I don't think so. No. Uhhh, yeah, I actually hate jazz. No I don't like going out at all. No I don't, I don't like music... Ok, I gotta go over there now! OK?' And he just didn't get it. He didn't comprehend anything that I was saying. He kept on asking, 'what about... well don't you listen to... don't you ever go out?' I just had to remove myself physically.

The whole time, I was thinking, 'hey asshole, I'm being REALLY nice to you right now, so fucking back off!' I was really angry, and left the BBQ after another 'character', a crazy lady approached me. There seems to be a discrepancy between what I'm feeling internally and what's being communicated. I can learn to be more assertive, I suppose. I just don't want to hurt his feelings.

It's hard, because I don't like telling people my opinions... because opinions are opinions, and I don't want to hurt people because of what I think or feel. Also because I hate it when people challenge my opinions. Also I hate it when I encounter people with very strong opinions. But I guess that's how you grow and learn. Being challenged, and finding out your uncomfortable spots. Cherish your enemies... right?

"I HATE babysitting. It makes me feel retarded." - Reiko

I just don't know how moms do it.... Then someone told me that it's different if it's your own child.

Cici - "Losing the battle, winning the war" - that's what she said... but I can tell she really enjoys working with these different personalities at her work, and she likes trying to figure them out. I want to play the game too.

"I really like labor jobs. I like working hard, sweating at the job. And then there's always a sense of accomplishment at the end." - Reiko

"I'm a first time art buyer. I never thought I could buy art. I saw your work, and I loved it, then I saw your price, and I was like, I can buy that!" - Lorraine.

"I saw your cows. They're fantastic. I came into the cafe, and I really liked them. I thought about buying them, then I saw how much you were selling them for, and I thought, I gotta get it." - Nina.

"Well the thing about the receipts is that they're discarded objects. And you draw them so well." - Fern

"I just want to see if I can live without it" - Maggie

"You should be showing them in galleries." - Katja

"I'm borrowing your van, I should be treating you to breakfast." - Reiko
"No, that's ok. You're worth it." - Bill

I don't know why, but that made me so happy. And Kelley and I agree that that's how it should be.

These quotes from people, it'd be nice if people had access to my blog and wrote me, instead of me writing down what they said... kinda cheesy.. but this is my special blog that only my friends have access to, and nobody from my art circle or jobby job.