New Year's Resolution

I think my new year's resolution is figuring out how to do resolutions.

I feel like I've got so much that I want, and so many goals, but not many things actually get done. I don't even remember what my resolution was last year (tho, I can probably fish it out of this blog...). I don't think I accomplished it, because I feel like the same person that I was last year, except with a couple more wounds. Attempted, yes, so at least I can give myself that. But I just know that what's more important than having a resolution is to figure out how to do these damn, these goddamn things.

So... this is what's going to happen.
1. Goal setting... figuring out what I want.
2. Information... finding out what it takes. Talk to people, read mags, websites, etc. Get buddies who wants to do the same kinda things.
3. Do little bits weekly or every day.
4. Keep going.
5. Remember again the desires.

Aaron inspires me a lot lately, because I learn from him. The way he talks about himself and emotions I can relate. So maybe we can help each other out. I was really happy... I think it was on Thanksgiving, I felt like I made a friend.

This is my bag of gold nuggets... Desires that's soon to be transformed into resolutions.

I want....
I want to lose weight. I want to be thin.
I want to do more stuff.... like go mushroom hunting or go to a cow farm.
I want to make more friends. Friends that care about each other.
I want to be an architect.
I want to be responsible.
I want to get a kick ass job.
I want to make money, spend less, and dig myself out of this debt.
I want to live in a nice apartment. One with hardwood floor.
I want to goto Turkey.
I want to goto Antarctica.
I want to keep working on my art and try to get a residency or a teaching position.
I want to help people.
I want to make art that I can be proud of.
I want to run a marathon.
I want a pair of stilettos.
I want a fuzzy bath robe.
I want a prius.
I want to get rid of this bed.
Oh, and I want to lighten up. So... develop a thicker skin, enhance my sense of humor etc. etc.
I want to spend more time with the Ocean. (surfing, sailing, swimming, bathing)
I want to laugh more.
I want to be more emotionaly responsible. (as Aaron says... I have to try to lessen the things that make me feel like I want to die... like cigaretts, like asparatine, like casual sex, like doing things without thinking about the consequences, like Christmas, like Birthdays, like losing my job)
I want to try not to make people angry.
I want to be happy.