04.12.08

Listening to Devendra Banhart on Pandora right now, as I lay in bed, under my marshmallow comforter, looking up at the half moon behind a couple of sunflowers. The warm summer wind seeps through the window, and I wonder to myself when was the last time I had felt this?

I can drift into feelings of ... moments of ... heaven. These feelings are flighty. You have to hang on to them, because it just doesn't last...

I think I am desperately fighting the bad thoughts. I don't want to believe that everyone's bad. I want to believe in the goodness in people. I feel like every time someone hurts me, dissapoint me, does something bad to me... I curl up inward, and become apathetic. When I can see the goodness in my enemies, then I feel like there's still something beautiful to life.

How to Love?

How to love a person?

How to love the world?

How...

Messenger BAgs

Well here are some of them...

r.e. load bags
This is a classic top loader, back packer style.

freitag
For the Europeans, popular amongst architecture students.

freight baggage
hand made in Berkeley.

lemolobags

ortlieb

crumpler

bbp

Grass Valley Is the Funnest place in the world

Jack London Sq. Train station.

Traveling by train, is really and truly one of the most cinematic experience ever.

Between Davis and Sacramento.

At the tip where the two roof planes merge is where Amanda lives. She lives on the second floor, in an attic space. There is a hot tub around the corner towards the back.

Compared to Amanda's room mine is pretty stoic. Most of the walls are kept bare, and the colors are simple. Comparing the two rooms, we seem like very different people. Someone may even say that we could be opposites. However, hanging out with her, I saw so many similarities in our personalities, it was reaffirming to be with her. Things that I wanted to change about my own personality, I saw in hers as strengths. We are both very intuitive people, and feelers. We know from our instincts what works, what are right and what are wrong. Some people are not, they are more skeptical.

My room.
Amanda's room.

We've decided that being hairy is a great thing. So we put fake hair under our arms, under our nose, and posed for pictures. This picture is very hairy, but it doesn't have our prosthetics.

We took some dead pictures. We posed as dead girls. Some pictures were too gross, too silly, too blah, too something else to really expose without any monetary gain, so I'm censoring them. I don't know what we're going to do with these pictures, really.

This was accidental.
So dreamy.

There is an uncanny imagery of Divine in all of my pictures. I look into pictures of my face, and I see her shadow. Maybe it's because I am from Baltimore, and she is one of the icons of the city. Maybe it's because of costuming. Maybe it's because I can identify with a transvestite: We dress up to look more like a woman, and we look fake. In some of the pictures, I see my dad's face within mine.

One of my special powers, like the TV show, 'HERO', is the ability to see truths in people's faces. Maybe this isn't a special power, and maybe other people can do this too, but there had been times when I can look into someone's face, and I see their truths. I can see a child behind their faces. The child expresses their true emotions.

Plastic Bottles

The shadows that these things create are interesting. They can track the path of the sun.

To keep the shape of the bottle or not.

Thinking of longevity... What would happen to it over time? Will it get cruddy and brown? What about options for exchanging the bottles? So to make a container for a container.

COWS in a Little Farm

There's something about these entities... They're massive.

Feeding the crazy sheep.

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I went to a job interview today. I'm starting to realize that I need to acknowledge my own aberrant nature, and to embrace it. I feel like I'm always apologizing to these typical architecture firms. I don't feel like I'm an architect.

Cloud and Daisy

A trellis is a sun shade device. In a way, a cloud is just that. It creates just the right amount of shade from the sun. So what about a trellis that is cloud like in form, and refracts the sunlight.

Plastic Bottles as material is potentially very exciting. The problem is to not make the structure too messy, or trashlike. Here are some examples of plastic bottle structure that I found on google.