David Byrne at SF Symphony Hall

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And John Waters at the Castro Theatre on Monday!
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Autonomy of Identity within a Close Relationship

That's what I want.

Same thing that every body wants... I want to be loved, and at the same time have fun and be free. I insist on freedom. Love on the other hand, seems kind of painful. Not sure if I'm ready for that yet.

Kelley said that I need to work on humility. I think that means being more respectful of other people.

What am I scared of? I'm scared of being disapointed again. I'm scared that people are going to leave me again.

Why is respect such a challenge?

Because it seemed like, no matter how much I respected people, other people just didn't care. Because I was scared. Because he was supposed to protect me, and I'm all alone and poor, and miserable, and not special at all. And I feel like a little pebble that is so meaningless sometimes... And I guess it feels good to be meaningless sometimes. Less burden.

But what I have to do is... let other people know that they are special too.

Success

How to become successful...

Us humans, we come into this world under very different circumstances, and different genetic base. We acquire different skill sets based on circumstances and also based on our natural abilities. The most successful of us have a good combination of the circumstance and natural ability.

So I'm trying to figure out how to make things work. Things are just really merky, and my tendency is to push too much. There's no belief in destiny here.

I think the key to getting what you want, or to become successful is looking at your situation, looking at yourself, and then to problem solve. Find a solution that you are most comfortable with. Comfort seems to be key.

So in a way, I'm trying to say that we all know. We know what to do, why, what not to do, etc.

Is a Master of Lowering Expectations

It's kind of a way to deal with shit, life, in particular, parents, especially. Lowering Expectations.

I am a...

Japanese speaking Graphic Designer
Substitute Teacher
Tutor
Art Teacher
Organzer
Jr. Architect
Waitress
Administrative Assistant
Drafter
Barista
Baby sitter
Customer Service Specialist

Yosemite's the funnest Place in the World

This is me and my friend Laura. She keeps us all in check, and makes sure that we're taking care of ourselves. I'm glad that she keeps trying, cuz some people I just can't deal with.

Notice how sweet Laura is. Notice how my face is twice the size of hers... I think we call that Moon face in Japanese... it's not a good thing.

This is one standard picture, of standard tourists.

On one of the hike, Amanda and I got separated from Laura and Stefan. Amanda and I went to the Centennial Dome, which was spectacular, and Amanda found a cool tree. We took pictures of us there, and really, it would have been cooler if we were able to do some more funky things. I like how the photos are really spontaneous, but at the same time, a bit more makeup and glitter is always fun.

This is really cute. Amanda's head sticking out from underneath the tree.

I think I remember seeing a couple of chubby girls playing by the Yuba River, and Amanda pointed them out. Pssst, 'Reiko look at them'... as in, wow, they're so much like us... I am forever chubby girl, well, as long as I'm a healthy chubby girl who's also sexy, I think it's ok by me.

Action shot.

Amanda's so pretty.

This is looking West to the Bay Area. I'm taking a photo ontop of a map inscribed onto a metal sheet.

This is looking East to Baltimore.

I started this fire via the top down method. Peter and Teressa and the rest of the crew came back from their hike. We had some yummy vegan chilli, and started to sing some songs around the camp fire. I was trying to get these guys to sing the Nitingale song. 'What about the protest song? The one with the birds?' After about the fourth time I mentioned it, I think Peter asked me to sing it... And I did. And I just stopped at the first verse. I sort of wanted other people to pick it up. If I was Tara, then I could have gotten everyone to sing with me. I remember when we were protesting at Washington DC a long time ago, she kept singing it when we were marching. Even after everyone stopped singing, she kept going, and people started to join her again. She's got so much spirit, she's amazing.

I had started to drink, a bottle of red, champagne, some grapefruit juice and vodka, but not beer. I wasn't the only one drinking, but I think, I was pretty much the only one that kept going. I pulled a Bernard that evening. Laura said that we all have Bernard moments, but he's the only one that can do it full time.
I just wanted to have fun, that's all.

Oh, and I think I'm less freaked out with Mr. Peter Petty Personality. I joked around with him, and he joked around with me, and I think it's all right.

Teressa and Stefan. They look like siblings, but they are aunty and nephew.

That's Peter Petty Personality. He's not camera shy, he actually looked into my camera when I was taking a picture. Yay! The haiy head belongs to Terresa. She said, 'I still feel like I'm 18.' I think I'm shooting for 23, but good for her for being able to do 18.

I climbed up this huge rock by our camp site in the morning. I curled up under this tree, and thought a bit. I was actually picking black snot out of my nose. And then there was a guy who had come from no where. He wanted to check to see if I was dead. I think he must have been one of our neighbor campers, maybe even the one with the night vision goggle. It's funny, I was thinking about this. And people go to remote places, not so that they could be alone, or so that they could meditate, or pick their nose in private, but so that they could be found. This is kind of cheesy, and half true. I actually, just wanted to feel free.

Freedom from what?